Pubdate: Wed, 09 Aug 2000 Source: Richmond Review (CN BC) Copyright: 2000 Richmond Public Library Contact: Unit 140 5671 No. 3 Road, Richmond, B.C. Fax: (604) 606-8752 Website: http://www.rpl.richmond.bc.ca/community/RichmondReview/ Author: Mina Myong LOCAL PANHANDLER LEAVES BAD TASTE The other day, I was coming out of Save-On-Foods and walking to my car when I was approached by a peculiar woman. She said, "I'm sorry...I feel like killing myself...I'm so hungry...I have no money." I was stunned. I didn't know how to react. This was not Downtown Vancouver where one expects to encounter the faceless, homeless panhandler begging for money on the streets. This was Richmond on a bright, sunny afternoon. This was not a scruffy-looking hobo in tattered rags. This was a young, white female who was well-groomed and sensibly dressed. On the brink of tears, she began to explain that her sister was out of town and that she was alone. She claimed that she had never asked anyone for money before, but that she was starving. I looked down at the bag of groceries in my hand, and I looked up at her emaciated body in sharp, piercing glances. A wave of guilt washed over me. I felt sorry for her. I didn't have any cash on me except for a couple of quarters, so I apologized to her. I told her I knew how it felt to go through hard times. I advised her to seek out food banks and local shelters; I directed her to the unemployment office for assistance. In response, she mumbled something about looking up a phone book, thanked me, walked away, and approached an Asian couple nearby. Curious, I went inside Save-On-Foods and spoke with Customer Service. They told me that this woman had been scouring the parking lot on several earlier occasions. What was she looking for? Drug money. The remnants of my initial guilt flared into anger. I felt like a naive idiot. I wanted my 50 cents back. Of course, it all made sense now: those were drug-induced gaunt cheeks. She was a drug addict on a desperate, frenzied search for her next high. But why hadn't that possibility crossed my mind? Why had I been caught off-guard? I believe it is because this happened in Richmond. As someone who has lived here for 16 years, there was a part of me that wanted to believe that my quiet community was unblemished by drugs and untarnished by illicit activity. At least, not out in the open. Not in public. Sure, the streets aren't as safe as they once were, but I still thought of Richmond as a safe-haven, a step above the rest of Vancouver. From outer appearances, Richmond was an epitome of middle-class safety. Maybe Richmond hasn't changed. Maybe it has always been like this. After all, drug addictions cut across all ethnic, geographic, and socioeconomic lines. However, it is unsettling to experience it first-hand and to stare at it in the face-especially two blocks from home. I will not be so shocked or accepting of the next similar episode. I refuse to feed a drug habit. I will assert my right to walk on the streets without being harassed in Richmond or anywhere else. I am still a compassionate, caring person, and I still feel sympathy for people who are less privileged. I can do my part by making donations to local food banks and charities. The main difference is that my eyes have hardened this summer. Mina Myong Richmond - --- MAP posted-by: Larry Stevens