Pubdate: Mon, 09 Jul 2001 Source: Oklahoman, The (OK) Copyright: 2001 The Oklahoma Publishing Co. Contact: http://www.oklahoman.com/ Details: http://www.mapinc.org/media/318 Author: Tom Lindley Note: Multi-part series Meth, Shattered Lives, Part 2A INMATE FINDING HOPE IN LIFE BROKEN BY METH HOLDENVILLE - Larry D. Andrews has found something to cling to in a life gone wrong. The answer has been staring back at him 24 hours a day ever since it arrived on May 31. And when the lights go out each night at the Davis Correctional Facility, it's the last thing on Andews' mind. The letter from his 14-year-old daughter is attached to a magnet at the end of his metal-framed bed. He wishes she would still call him "Dad," but he knows all too well why he's "Larry" instead. He officially gave up that luxury six years ago when he signed away his parental rights. What's more important is that she said she would forgive him because that's what God would want. And then came a brief postscript, a few words that barely added up to a complete sentence. "She said I could write back if I wanted to," he said. "I tell you, that was better than any feeling I ever got from using meth." In prison, where privileges are few and most sentences are long, Andrews realized that he was getting the best sentence of all - hope. Of course, this isn't the first time Andrews has had something special going for him, only to foul it up. "I've always been the one in control, the leader of the pack - and that was without using dope," Andrews said. "I've had a lot of luck laid on the table for me, and I've created some of my own luck." Six years ago, Andrews' gift for words and his quarter-million-dollar income bought him a lavish lifestyle. That was before he used his money to buy a lot of methamphetamine and, ultimately, 100 years in felony charges. As a high school football star in Washington, Andrews could get away with popping two "yellow jackets" or speed before a game and turn his aggressiveness into 295 yards rushing and 25 tackles. An independent claims adjuster who traveled coast-to-coast from one major catastrophe to another, Andrews was on his way to becoming rich in 1995. Even after crystal meth became his only obsession, Andrews refused to become a run-of-the-mill drug addict. "I had nice clothes, a nice car and still had my teeth," Andrews said. "One time when I got arrested the officer said I was one of the first ones he had ever seen who carried on a full conversation." For a long time, Andrews, 39, believed he had the power to control his own drug use the same way he had always controlled the conversation in a roomful of people or the way he controlled other addicts with a bag of dope. When he was a student, Andrews paid $15 for his first bag of marijuana, purchasing it in the ag barn at school. But he didn't let pot or "speed" or anything else, for that matter, get in his way. His priorities changed one day in Sacramento, Calif., where Andrews had been sent to investigate claims in the aftermath of the 1994 California earthquake. "An ol' boy had some, and I smoked it with him," Andrews said. "He told me it was a social thing - like having a good cigar after dinner." At first, Andrews didn't like the tiny silvery crystals that looked like shattered glass. But within a year, he was buying dope in California and bringing it back to Oklahoma. Work, meanwhile, was piling up on the floor. "I had all those companies, from Texas to Iowa and Indiana, calling me to go to work," he said. "They'd fax me information, but all that paper just wound up under the fax machine." Within five years, his marriage, his triple-A credit rating, the Mercedes and his daughter were all gone, replaced by more than two dozen criminal charges and a string of possible life sentences. "One day when I went to court I was handcuffed to another ol' boy at county jail," Andrews said. "They took the cuffs off me because it was going to take so long to read the charges." Andrews smoked dope every day. Behind on his child support payments and in trouble with the law, he was high on meth the day he gave up his daughter. "The whole town knew me and every time I turned around, I was in the courthouse records," he said. "I knew I was embarrassing her." Andrews thought he could con the world - he completed an 18-session outpatient drug treatment program in Oklahoma City just to spite those who said he couldn't do it. But he underestimated the power of meth. Shortly after getting out of treatment, Andrews was playing golf one day when he found a quarter-ounce of crystal meth in the pocket of his golf bag. "I was looking for golf tees and there it was," he said. And there he went - straight downhill to the penitentiary. In February, Andrews pleaded guilty to manufacture and possession of meth and receiving and concealing stolen property before District Judge Tom Lucas in Cleveland County. He is serving a 20-year sentence at the Davis Correctional Facility. Prison is prison, and every day Andrews puts on his blue shirt and pants like the rest of the men in the high-level medium security facility. But he said he doesn't despise the razor-wire-topped walls of Davis or resent the people who put him here. \ Andrews says he has found freedom in his confinement. "Being here is an eye-opener, but at the same time it's like going back to college and playing football, except that there aren't any sports," he said. "I'm going to class, but I don't have a vehicle to jump in; I don't have any money in my pockets; and there's no women to go chase." Like many others who walk the four corners of the prison yard, Andrews, now tapping his fingers on a maroon Bible case, claims to be a changed man. He was in the chaplain's office the day he saw an article about reuniting with loved ones. It gave him the courage to write his daughter. "It may be premature to say this, but I've learned my lesson," he said. "I was smoking crank the day I went to court, and I don't know why I did that. It's been offered to me right here on this yard since I've been here. But if you told me I was getting out tomorrow and there was 10 pounds, or even 100 pounds, waiting for me, I'd walk right past it. It's a promise he's already broken more than once. "There will be a bunch of people in Washington who say, 'Yeah, he's full of it,'" said Larry Speer, his lawyer and friend. "Talking to him now, he's changed, and he's focused on what he has to do. I hope it works out for him, but we won't know until he gets out." When asked why the justice system, not to mention his family, should believe him this time, he sits motionless for a minute. A voice on the prison's public address system pierces the silence, but it does not break Andrews' stare. Finally, he answers: "I think about my daughter and my mom and dad and how I treated my dope dealers way better than I did them. I've lived this life from here to there. Out there, I was a maniac. I like the life I'm trying to live now." Unless his sentence is reduced, Larry D. Andrews, prisoner identification number 255767, won't be eligible for parole until 2007. - --- MAP posted-by: Beth