Pubdate: Tue, 23 Jan 2001 Source: Los Angeles Times (CA) Copyright: 2001 Los Angeles Times Contact: Times Mirror Square, Los Angeles, CA 90053 Fax: (213) 237-7679 Feedback: http://www.latimes.com/siteservices/talk_contacts.htm Website: http://www.latimes.com/ Forum: http://www.latimes.com/discuss/ Author: Douglas Haberman Note: News from Inland Valley in the Times Community Newspapers DISCIPLINE, SUPPORT HELP ADDICTS IN FIGHT Drug Court Participants Encourage Others Through Their Own Success That They Can Reverse The Downward Spiral Of Abuse. Joey Diaz, 43, is a drug court client who is succeeding, despite more than 25 years in and out of prison struggling with heroin addiction. He expects to graduate from the yearlong program in February. "I lived for it," he said of heroin. "I woke up for it. All my crimes were committed for heroin." But he wasn't getting any better in prison and he knew it. "I needed help," Diaz said. Judge Dennis Cole offered him the chance to go to drug court and Diaz grabbed it. It's been tough, he said. "It's a very intense program," Diaz said. "I never knew what it was to follow directions. This program taught me discipline." It also taught him he wasn't a bad person; he'd just made bad decisions, Diaz said. Now the Hemet resident has cast aside his old life, found God, asked a woman to marry him, and begun courses at Mount San Antonio College in Walnut to become a drug and alcohol counselor, he said. He's grateful to everyone in drug court and he still regularly goes to Narcotics Anonymous meetings, he said. "I know what's kept me clean this year," Diaz said. Not everyone who agrees to go through drug court exhibits the same wisdom. On Jan. 5, the drug court "judge," Commissioner Ronald Gilbert, sent 19-year-old Kristina Martinez to jail for a week after a urine test showed she was trying to use a substance that would camouflage her continued drug use. "It's not a good choice, who you're hanging out with," Gilbert told her. "You have a long prison career ahead of you." Martinez seemed almost cavalier as she went off to jail. The next Friday, she was in jailhouse orange, her eyes puffy from crying as Diaz counseled her quietly in a corner of the courtroom. He told her that child protective services would take away her child if she didn't straighten out, Diaz said. While Martinez struggles, Alfred Adams of Montclair is celebrating two years of sobriety. Now 50, he got hooked on black tar heroin 28 years ago and managed to support five children and a $150-a-day habit with a job in tunneling. His co-workers didn't see the telltale needle marks of a heroin addict because "I always wore long sleeves" on the job, Adams said. When he first got to drug court, he didn't think he could succeed, so he walked out. But he returned. "I was tired. I was just plain tired," he said. He vomited for nine straight days when he stopped shooting up and had trouble sleeping. "After 30 days of being clean, I realized it wasn't so bad," Adams said. He's started a lawn mower business and designed Halloween costumes and plans to sell humorous baby pacifiers of his own creation. None of it would've been possible without drug court, Adams said. "If it wasn't for them, I'd be a dead man," he said. Adams flashed a big smile and threw his arms wide. "Life is beautiful," he said. - --- MAP posted-by: Andrew