Pubdate: Sun, 14 Jul 2002
Source: New York Times (NY)
Copyright: 2002 The New York Times Company
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Details: http://www.mapinc.org/media/298
Section: Fashion & Style
Author: John Leland

BOOMERS' LITTLE SECRET STILL SMOKES UP THE CLOSET

FOR Justin, a history teacher and the father of two teenagers, the moment 
of drug anxiety came when his children were in elementary school. They had 
just been to a DARE drug education class and informed him "that it's a 
totally bad thing to take drugs," he said.

Though he approved of the overall message, their zeal put him in a fix. 
Justin, 50, who declined to use his last name, smokes marijuana two or 
three times a week. What could he tell his children without appearing to 
condone drug use? "I said, 'But not all drugs are bad, are they?' "

For Daniel, a freelance writer in North Carolina, the moment came when his 
son, then 4, smelled marijuana on his clothing. Daniel, 42, did what he 
felt most people would under the circumstances: he lied, saying it was just 
smoke from candles. Though his son accepted his lie, the incident nagged at 
Daniel, who said he smokes marijuana about once a month. "It occurred to 
me, how much longer can I get away with this?" he said. "Am I going to be 
open and upfront about it, and is that going to cause some sort of conflict?"

As anyone who came of age around the smell of marijuana knows, drug use was 
supposed to follow a passing narrative arc: you had your youthful 
experimentation, you learned your lesson, you grew up and out of it. But 
for many, like Justin and Daniel, things have not worked out that way. 
Years after the battles about drugs with their parents, they are facing 
another generational hurdle - how to reconcile their marijuana use with the 
demands of raising their children. "The questions are, how much do you want 
to continue that lifestyle, and how much do you tell your kid?" said a 
mother in Westchester County, N.Y. "You don't want to be a hypocrite."

This is not a ballad of chronic drug abuse and family dysfunction, but in 
many cases one of moderate users who have managed careers, families and 
social lives while sneaking an occasional joint. Most say they smoke for 
the same reasons they always did: to relax, listen to music or socialize. 
After two or more decades, they see little harm. "We never study those 
people," said Dr. Roger Roffman, a professor of social work at the 
University of Washington, where since 1983 he has studied marijuana use. 
Speaking hypothetically, he likened this group to the majority of drinkers, 
who do not progress to alcoholism.

Though statistics involving drug use are notoriously slippery, as many as 1 
in 10 American parents of children under 18, or about 6 million people, 
said they had smoked marijuana in the preceding 12 months, according to a 
poll conducted last year by RoperASW. One in 20 parents, or about 3 million 
people, said they had smoked in the preceding month. The poll, sponsored by 
the Partnership for a Drug-Free America, included interviews with 1,219 
parents. Many people will not tell a stranger about their illegal activity, 
so the marijuana estimate is probably low. Because the topic involves both 
illegal marijuana smoking and children, most people interviewed for this 
article were highly circumspect, often unwilling to use even their first 
names. One father responded by e-mail:

"Will call, but I can't let my daughter know. So I will have to find a 
private moment to talk. Will also have to make sure my parents don't find out.

"Oh, the irony.

"The angst."

With decidedly mixed feelings, many are now repeating the ruses of their 
adolescence, sneaking out on ledges as they did years ago, wondering what 
they'll say if they get caught.

"It was much easier to hide it from my parents," said a Brooklyn 
professional woman with two preteenage children, who described leaning out 
over an unsteady window grating to smoke. "I go to great lengths," she 
said. "I put towels under the door, I use baby powder to hide the smell. If 
I say I'm going to Costco, my baby sitter knows."

Another man said he stuck to the tried and true, hiding his weed in the 
same Rolling Stones album cover he used as a child. As he figures, his 
children are no more likely to stumble across it there than his parents were.

Parents, of course, have many secrets from their children, including their 
finances and the details of their sex lives. And some who smoke tobacco are 
reluctant to do it in front of the children these days, not wanting to pass 
on the habit.

But marijuana use comes with a unique set of conflicted feelings. For many, 
it still resonates as a triumphal rite of passage and stirs reminders of 
their own parents' cluelessness.

Yet even parents who pride themselves on being open with their children on 
many matters often hide their marijuana use, fearing that they will lose 
their parental authority or set the wrong example.

Most say they have no trouble - and see minimal risks - buying marijuana, a 
misdemeanor. Police officers and courts often look the other way or impose 
mild penalties, said Dr. Alfred Blumstein, professor of criminal justice at 
Carnegie Mellon University. "Even if they get arrested, not much is going 
to come of it," he said.

Joseph A. Califano, president of the National Center on Addiction and 
Substance Abuse at Columbia University, criticized what he sees as a 
generation refusing to grow up and take responsibility, inflicting its 
habits on its children.

"There's a big disconnect in values today," Mr. Califano said. "Parents of 
the 70's by and large think marijuana is less dangerous than teenagers of 
the 2000's. Parents of the 70's have mostly grown out of it, while kids see 
what happens to potheads in their classes."

In the short term, marijuana can impair memory and judgment, research has 
shown; the smoke is also carcinogenic.

Mr. Califano advised that parents be honest about their past use.

Sam, 49, a Vermont father of two, considers himself on the extreme end of 
hiding his drug use from his children. If they question him, he said, he 
doesn't lie, he just ducks the questions. "I talk to my friends all the 
time about disclosure and honesty," he said. "I have friends that are more 
forthcoming, but I don't get it: how does talking about their experiences 
have a positive bearing on what their children should do?"

The problem for those parents is a sticky one. From their own experiences, 
many do not consider the occasional joint a great hazard. But they fear 
their children smoking too often or too early in the hothouse years, when 
every whim tends to be taken to excess. While they draw a line between 
moderate use and problem use, they cannot assume their children will do so.

"I'm hoping I can keep it from them until they're 16, 17 - until they're 
old enough to deal with it," another mother of two preteenagers said of her 
own marijuana use. Beyond those critical years, she worried more about her 
own marijuana future than that of her children. "Am I going to be out there 
buying nickel bags when I'm 80?" she asked. "My husband has outgrown it."

Even moderate drug use can put parents in an awkward position with their 
children, inverting the family roles. "I have to stand up straight and not 
be goofy," said a New Jersey man named Frank, 50, who has two daughters, 21 
and 16. "They say, `Dad, what's up? You're acting stupid.' It's very 
similar to when I was busted by my parents."

Though he keeps his infrequent marijuana use a secret, Frank does not worry 
that his children will follow his example. "My kids are old enough to 
question my choices," he said. "They see the stoners in school as wastoids. 
If I told them, they'd say, `That's why you were being weird.' "

Drug counselors warn that parental use, even in secret, can influence the 
behavior of children. In a 1999 survey of nearly 600 teenagers in drug 
treatment, one in five said they had used drugs with a parent.

Michael Gray, a Los Angeles 16-year-old, described smoking marijuana with 
his father, a cabinetmaker, at first occasionally, then several times a 
day. When Michael progressed to methamphetamine and stopped going to 
school, he resented his father's attempts to discipline him. "I thought he 
was a hypocrite," Michael said. Now the two are in family drug therapy. "I 
wish he had been more of a father and told me right off it was bad," 
Michael said. "We were way too much like friends."

The question of parental influence is an elusive one. When adolescent drug 
use doubled during the mid-1990's, after more than a decade of steady 
decline, a group of researchers working for the government Substance Abuse 
and Mental Health Services Administration set out to test a theory - that 
the rise was due to an increase in the number of parents who had smoked 
marijuana. The researchers combed through surveys from 1979 to 1996 to see 
whether the children of parents who smoked marijuana, in the past or 
present, were more likely to try the drug as well.

The results, available on the agency Web site (www.samhsa 
.gov/OAS/NHSDA/BabyBoom /toc.htm) revealed a complex pattern of parental 
influence. Children whose parents had smoked marijuana were indeed more 
likely to indulge. But after that, things got tricky.

"Whether the parent smoked marijuana in the past or in the most recent year 
didn't make any difference," said Dr. Denise B. Kandel, a researcher at the 
Mailman School of Public Health at Columbia University who lead the group.

Parental cigarette smoking, past or current, appeared to have a stronger 
correlation to children's drug use than parental marijuana smoking, Dr. 
Kandel said. The researchers concluded that parents influence their 
children not according to a simple dichotomy - by smoking or not smoking - 
but by a range of attitudes and behaviors, perhaps including their style of 
discipline and level of parental involvement. Their own drug use was just 
one component among many.

"Looking at single influences doesn't work," she said. "Very often when you 
control for other variables the influence disappears."

As the first wave of the counterculture ages - watching Paul McCartney 
approach 64 - some members are facing the next challenge: hiding their 
marijuana use from their grandchildren. Nearly 100,000 Americans over 60 
smoke marijuana occasionally, according to the 2000 National Household 
Survey on Drug Abuse, a government study based on interviews with 71,764 
people. Again, this estimate may be low.

One suburban publishing professional with adolescent grandchildren said 
that in his 60's, he found marijuana a particularly gentle pleasure. But 
when his grandchildren visit, he goes into deep cover. "I've even taken to 
rolling cigarettes in front of them, just in case they find a roach."

His age has led him to some discretion, he said. "I would never smoke in 
the street," he said. "I could just imagine getting stopped, and my 
grandchildren reading about it in the paper."

Even with his grandchildren, though, the game was already more precarious 
than he figured, he said. When he rolled the cigarette, his grandson, 8, 
said, "Grandpa, that looks like a joint."
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