Pubdate: Fri, 04 Jul 2003 Source: Herald, The (UK) Copyright: 2003 The Herald Contact: http://www.theherald.co.uk/ Details: http://www.mapinc.org/media/189 Authors: Stephen Stewart and Robbie Dinwoodie Bookmarks: http://www.mapinc.org/people/Ivol (Biz Ivol) http://www.mapinc.org/mmj.htm (Cannabis - Medicinal) http://www.mapinc.org/find?207 (Cannabis - United Kingdom) CANNABIS WOMAN TO 'TRY SUICIDE AGAIN' BIZ Ivol, the terminally-ill cannabis campaigner, yesterday described how she tried to end her life with 25 paracetamol tablets, two-and-a-half joints, and a glass of lemonade. She said: "I am so disappointed that I'm still here. Now I can't wait to get home. I'll make sure I do it properly next time." From her bed in Balfour Hospital, Kirkwall, Ms Ivol said regaining consciousness after the unsuccessful suicide at-tempt was like "waking from a nightmare". Ms Ivol, an MS sufferer, tried to raise awareness of the medicinal uses of cannabis during a high-profile court case. The 56-year-old had faced three charges of possessing, distributing, and producing can-nabis, but prosecutors an-nounced earlier this week that the case was to be dropped because of Ms Ivol's deteriorating medical condition. "Once I knew the case had been dropped, I knew I could fight no longer," she said yesterday. "I just decided when I went to bed that there are plenty of people who can carry on the fight for the medicinal use of cannabis to be legalised." After smoking a joint in the early hours of Wednesday morning, Ms Ivol, from Herston, South Ronaldsay, took 10 paracetamol tablets with a glass of lemonade. "I felt happy and relaxed after smoking the joint and I soon fell asleep. I woke up a couple of hours later, smoked another joint and took another 10 paracetamol. "I wasn't feeling guilty or upset, just happy that things were coming to an end and that I was in no pain. I woke again at about 5.30am and, as the paracetamol didn't seem to have worked, swallowed five more tablets I found lying in the bed. "I smoked half of another joint and figured out it would be at least another four hours before anyone found me, and that the paracetamol should have worked by then. But I was still fully conscious when my next door neighbour came round just before 8am and I told her what I'd done." Ms Ivol's condition was described as comfortable, but she was still struggling to come to terms with her failed suicide attempt. "I'm really cross with myself and I feel like having a good cry. I don't want to live any more. This disease has taken over my body and life is just too painful for me to carry on. "I'm going to commit suicide properly next time. Waking up in hospital and finding that I made a mess of it was like a nightmare for me." She also described the disappointment after hearing that her court case was being dropped. "I was bitterly disappointed. It was not how I wanted it to end. I wanted to change the law. I wanted to go all the way to the House of Lords and the European Court of Human Rights." Margo MacDonald, the independent MSP, said her case had shown the need for the executive to use its legal powers to halt prosecutions for the medical use of cannabis. She recognised overall drug policy was reserved to Westminster, but argued that criminal law and prosecution policy was devolved to Holyrood. "We need to look at possible derogation on prosecution where there is a certificate from a GP on, for example, a case of multiple sclerosis. The fiscal and the police could decide that use of cannabis or its supply for pain relief could be dealt with in a sympathetic way." - --- MAP posted-by: Richard Lake