Pubdate: Thu, 8 May 2003 Source: San Jose Mercury News (CA) Copyright: 2003 San Jose Mercury News Contact: http://www.bayarea.com/mld/mercurynews Details: http://www.mapinc.org/media/390 Author: Michelle Guido Bookmark: http://www.mapinc.org/rehab.htm (Treatment) Bookmark: http://www.mapinc.org/prison.htm (Incarceration) PICKING UP THE PIECES Girl Scout Troop Helps Jailed Moms Trying To Connect With Daughters Five Girl Scouts pair up with their mothers and split into two groups for a singalong. They try to out-sing each other as they belt out show tunes and oldies. In the corner of the room a uniformed correctional officer stands guard. This is not your ordinary Girl Scout meeting. But for 90 minutes every Saturday, these young girls and their mothers -- who are incarcerated at Santa Clara County's Correctional Center for Women - -- try to rebuild troubled relationships torn apart by drugs, crime and years of pent-up anger. "I don't have a good relationship with my mom, and I didn't really want to see her at first," said Desarie, 16, whose mother signed up for the program in January. The Mercury News is not identifying the children because their mothers are in jail. "But when I came, it kind of helped us get to know each other again, so that's why I still come." Despite the success of the new program, called Heart to Heart by the Girl Scouts of Santa Clara County, it was perilously close to becoming one of several rehabilitative projects cut this year because of the county's $160 million budget deficit. The program, paid for by a grant through the Girl Scouts, doesn't cost the county a penny, said Carla Van Meter, a rehabilitation officer at the Elmwood Correctional Facility in Milpitas. Even though the department of correction must cut $17 million from its $126.5 million budget, officials say they can continue to provide one correctional officer to oversee the weekly meetings. In order to participate, the mothers must have daughters between the ages of 12 and 17, and the desire to strengthen those relationships. The daughters -- many of whom are living with relatives or in foster care - -- make the final decision whether to participate. Many are angry at their mothers, most of whom have been in jail more than once. Each Wednesday night, counselors from the Girl Scouts meet with the women at Elmwood. On Saturday mornings, they meet with the daughters. Later that afternoon, the mothers and daughters are united at the jail's visiting room, which is decorated with children's brightly colored art work. "A lot of girls feel a responsibility to take care of their mothers," said Cassandra Reed, a paralegal from Sunnyvale who is one of the Girl Scout counselors. "We want them to know that they are teenagers and that isn't their responsibility." One of the girls, a 15-year-old named Nikki, has been forced to take on adult responsibilities because her mom has been in and out of jail for years because of drug use. Now that her mother is out of jail, Nikki often feels more like parent than child. "Trying to keep her clean and sober is more work for me than it is for her," said Nikki, who is allowed to stay in the program for peer support even though she no longer attends the jail visits. "We shouldn't have responsibility for our mothers. It's not cool when they act like children and do drugs and go to jail." On a recent Wednesday night, five inmate participants sat in a portable classroom on the county jail grounds. Two Heart to Heart counselors began by asking the mothers to read the program's rules, a weekly ritual. Many of the rules regard conduct and common sense -- no talking about their cases, no "street talk." But some rules foreshadow the emotional nature of the Saturday mother-daughter meetings: "Overly dramatic reactions, yelling, excessive crying or sobbing will not be tolerated." Forced to remain clean and sober while in jail, many of the mothers in the program come to powerful realizations about the pain they've caused their children. "I betrayed my daughter's trust, and I know I did," said Genny Carranza, 36, who is in jail for drug possession and being under the influence. - --- MAP posted-by: Jay Bergstrom