Pubdate: Thu, 06 Nov 2003 Source: Carillon, The (CN MB) Copyright: 2003 The Carillon Contact: http://www.thecarillon.com/ Details: http://www.mapinc.org/media/2340 Bookmark: http://www.mapinc.org/rehab.htm (Treatment) JOBS, ACCEPTANCE PART OF RECOVERY FROM DRUGS "There is more to life than chasing a high," says a Steinbach resident who is recovering from a 15-year battle with drug and alcohol addictions. But his struggles with addictions didn't end three years ago when he admitted he had a problem and asked for help. "They say life gets easier the longer you stay clean but it is hard to stay clean," says Dan, adding job offers, family support and community acceptance are important pieces in the recovery process. Dan, not his real name, is a member of the Steinbach Addictions Awareness committee and a volunteer counsellor at Backstagethe Steinbach Youth for Christ drop-in centre. The addictions committee has published his story on placemats and information sheets that will be used and distributed in local restaurants Addictions Awareness Week, Nov. 16-22. Dan says he is sharing his story with the hope it will motivate people dealing with addictions to find help and raise awareness that family and community support go a long way to help recovering addicts gain self-esteem and self-confidence. Addictions cross all income level and cultural boundaries, says Dan, adding his story is similar to the stories of many others who have problems with addictions. Dan started drinking alcohol and smoking marijuana at the age of 14 or 15 to feel part of a group. "As soon as I smoked my first joint I wanted morethe same thing with drinking." He soon started using harder drugs and supported his addictions through criminal activities. "I got hooked on that tooit was the excitement of being where I shouldn't be," he recalls. He spent the next 15 years in and out of prison. About three years ago, he experienced what he describes as a "moment of clarity." He was at his friend's house getting high when he noticed the grubby living conditions and lack of personal hygiene. "I knew I had a loving family to go home toI knew I was better than this." He called his AA sponsor. "That phone weighed 1,000 poundsit is a humbling experience to ask for help. It is hard, really hard to do that." Dan had gone to AA meetings and participated in detoxification programs before as part of various programs but this time it was his own initiative. "I wanted to quit before it killed me," he says, adding that staying clean is an ongoing struggle. He emphasized that his faith in God is a constant source of strength. "It is an act of God that I'm clean," he says. "When I struggle with staying clean I pray, 'please help me through this place' and God intervenes somehow." New opportunities Dan, now 32, says being clean is opening doors to new opportunities and new beginnings. He graduated from high school in June 2002, got his first driver's licence, got married last year and appreciates the strong support of a loving wife and her child. He's grateful that a Steinbach employer gave him the "benefit of the doubt" and offered him a job to help him establish a good record of employment. He quit his job to upgrade his skills and is now enrolled at Winnipeg Technical College. Dan is looking for a part-time evening job. "I'm not lazyI want to work and need money to pay the bills," he explains. "I've cleaned up but my past is still my past. The baggage is still with me." He makes a conscious effort to use his past experiences to help others. He says his first-hand experience with peer pressure, foster homes, group homes and prison help him relate to youth who are experiencing similar problems. "I want to give back to my communityI won't change the world but hopefully I can help one kid," he says. His interest in visual arts helps him deal with his past and gives him an outlet to use his past experiences in a positive way. "Drawing helps me find myselfit is almost like meditation," he says. "It helps me come to conclusions about what I should do and think about something before I do it." He designs artwork for tee shirts that combine creative artwork with messages that encourage youth to say no to drugs, stay in school and stay out of gangs. "The message isjust say no but I try to make the designs look cool so that kids will want to wear it," he says. He sells tee shirts on an individual basis but is looking for businesses, schools and organizations that would be interested in distributing his shirts or using his designs on clothing that also has the business or organization logo. "I would put all the money back into the business to create awareness of the dangers of drugs," he says. He has dreams of opening an art studio someday that would be open to others dealing with addictions. Dan gets support from AA meetings but says there is a need in Steinbach for a narcotics anonymous (NA) group as well. He is currently looking for a location for meetings for such a group. Bev Unger, chair of the 17-member Addiction Awareness Committee, says the placemats and information sheets also provide information to help family, friends and employers recognize signs of addictions and list resources available for people who have addictions. For more information about the Addiction Awareness Committee, community resources and Dan's tee shirt designs, please contact Unger at 346-6348. - --- MAP posted-by: Larry Seguin