Pubdate: Thu, 18 Dec 2003 Source: Sun-Sentinel (Fort Lauderdale, FL) Copyright: 2003 Sun-Sentinel Company Contact: http://www.sun-sentinel.com/ Details: http://www.mapinc.org/media/159 Author: Margarita Martinez, The Associated Press FORMER FIGHTERS GET COUNSELING LA CEJA - On the neatly trimmed grounds of a former social club, ex- paramilitary fighters are struggling to leave the past behind them. Once they were feared members of the outlawed Cacique Nutibara militia, enemies of the country's leftist guerrillas. Now, after the 800-member militia handed in their weapons Nov. 25, they are young men with few prospects, afraid of their future. Many have known violence most of their lives. "I don't know how I will feel without my weapon," said a 26-year-old fighter who would only give his alias, Godimes. He said he has belonged to a neighborhood gang in the city of Medellin since he was 8. Godimes and other former members of the Cacique Nutibara, the first paramilitary faction to disarm, are undergoing three weeks of counseling at the former club in La Ceja, 18 miles outside Medellin. For the first time since the demobilization, a few journalists were allowed into the former social club. One young man acknowledged he had never carried a gun and had slipped into the demobilization process in hopes of getting job training. "I saw this as an opportunity to be able to study and get work," said a 21-year-old man who gave his name only as Edison. Opponents of President Alvaro Uribe's initiative to demobilize the 12,000-member paramilitary forces have criticized it as half-baked and one that would allow killers and drug traffickers to escape justice. Defenders of the process say it is the first step in removing the brutal paramilitary forces from the battlefields. Commanders of the paramilitary umbrella group, known as the Self- Defense Forces of Colombia, have pledged to completely demobilize within two years, as long as they do not face long prison terms. That Edison managed to get into the demobilizing group underscores that the process is not finely tuned. The three-week decompression period also does not include job training, even though the fighters will be thrown into Medellin's job market when they leave. Social workers instead are working on changing their violent ways. At one point, they gathered to sing a popular Argentine ballad called The Color of Hope, whose lyrics include paint my face the color of hope; look into the future with your heart. Once patronized by the elite, the former social club features a swimming pool surrounding by grounds landscaped with tropical plants. The former gunmen spent part of the day in the pool, congregating in the shallow end because they don't know how to swim. Rev. Leonel Narvaez, who is aiding the rehabilitation process in La Ceja, said that despite the problems, the initiative must go forward for the sake of Colombia and of the former fighters. "It's a very difficult process, but it must be given a chance," Narvaez said. "They have shown an eagerness to return to normal life." Many of the former paramilitary gunmen have no work experience, other than acting as hired thugs and combatants. Most came from poor neighborhoods of Medellin, the second-largest city that has been beset by violence since it gave birth to the brutal Medellin cocaine cartel in the 1980s. One 41-year-old fighter, who gave his name only as Elkin, said he had been a hired gun for Pablo Escobar, the kingpin of the now-disbanded Medellin cartel before he was killed in a shootout with police 10 years ago. The Cacique Nutibara also engaged in extortion and drug trafficking. Another militia member, who identified himself only as Jaison, said he belonged to gangs since he was 13 and joined the paramilitary faction a year ago. "I've never thought about what I should do next," Jaison said. "Maybe I'll drive a taxi." - --- MAP posted-by: Perry Stripling