Pubdate: Sat, 03 May 2003 Source: Globe and Mail (Canada) Copyright: 2003, The Globe and Mail Company Contact: http://www.globeandmail.ca/ Details: http://www.mapinc.org/media/168 Author: Elizabeth Bromstein A LONG, STRANGE TRIP Baba Ram Dass Helped A Generation Find Enlightenment By Dosing Its Members With Hallucinogens And A Live-In-The-Present Philosophy. Now, Writes Elizabeth Bromstein, He's Pondering The Uncertainty Of The Future Mention the name Ram Dass these days and you're likely to be met with a blank stare. Some people might pause for a moment and mutter, "Ram Dass . . . Ram Dass . . . I know I've heard the name . . ." You can forgive the look that suggests they're contemplating an acid flashback -- Ram Dass's name has been linked with hallucinogenic drugs since the 1960s, when he and Timothy Leary conducted their legendary mind-expanding tests with Harvard University students and together set the wheels in motion for the psychedelic age. The Jewish academic-turned-mystic-and-guru became the countercultural It boy of the late '60s and early '70s after he returned from an enlightenment-seeking trip to India and brought back a message about the importance of consciously living in the present -- a philosophy that earned him the adulation of the love generation. Some time around the onset of 1980s consumerism, he slipped out of the Zeitgeist. But the man famous for his Eastern-based Be Here Now approach is still probing life's mysteries, and still aiming to connect with the generation that once adored him. Today, Ram Dass describes himself as "an uncle" to the boomers. And like them, the aging spiritual teacher is increasingly interested in the issues that arise as you edge past middle age and head closer toward the end of life. "I'm mapping the terrain of aging and death," he says on the phone from California, before embarking on a speaking tour that will bring him to Toronto tomorrow for a public appearance and screening of a new documentary about his life called Fierce Grace by Mickey Lemle. One of the reasons for Ram Dass's preoccupation with death and aging is obvious: He suffered a massive cerebral hemorrhage in 1997 that nearly killed him. Six years later, the rehabilitation process still under way, he is confined to a wheelchair and suffers from aphasia, an impairment of the ability to find words. His mind is clear, but his speech is slow and halting, interrupted by long pauses. He describes his head as a "bombed-out dressing room," where his concepts become "clothed" in words. The clothes are in the closet, but he can't open the door. It seems a cruel irony that a man who was once known as a brilliant speaker and maestro of wordplay is reduced to expressing himself through roundabout metaphors and sentences that trail off. But despite his difficulty speaking, he comes across on the phone as inexhaustibly patient and focused. The stroke was a blow to his ego, he says, bringing up a subject that has often been central in his work. His 1971 book Be Here Now explored the importance of quieting the mind and transcending ego so "you can hear how it really is, so when you are with a candle flame you are the candle flame and when you are with another being's mind you are the other being's mind. When there is a task to do you are the task." But we all struggle with ego. Even Ram Dass, forever trying to be honest about his own shortcomings, has admitted to having a big one. So it was only after the stroke happened -- and he was forced to live closer to the "soul level" than the "ego level" -- that he finally allowed Mickey Lemle to make the film. Mr. Lemle had been after him for a while to make a movie documenting his life. "I figured it's a dharmic film," Ram Dass says. "That's why I did it. It was after I got over thinking about this film being about me that I could do it. I was just a participant." So the documentary about Ram Dass is not about Ram Dass? "No. He transformed me into a saint, and that's Mickey's take on me. It was 60 hours of film from which this film became an hour and a half. So the things that are on the cutting room floor are me." What's left is a documentation of his recovery process -- with its "suffering and pain and death and spirit" -- and some fascinating archival footage. Ram Dass -- whose family name was Richard Alpert -- was born into a wealthy Jewish family in 1931. He received an MA from Wesleyan University and a PhD from Stanford. In 1958, he scored a position at Harvard, where he began the now legendary drug research project with Mr. Leary. The tests mainly involved psilocybin (a synthetic version of magic mushrooms), which they administered to about 200 people and monitored its effects. "We gave it to jazz musicians and physicists and philosophers and ministers and junkies and graduate students and social scientists," Ram Dass wrote in Be Here Now. Interest in hallucinogens began to peak on campus, and students started trying to get their hands on the "consciousness-expanding materials" (which weren't technically illegal substances at the time). Mr. Leary and Mr. Alpert were dismissed from Harvard in 1963, charged with breaching an agreement not to administer the drugs to undergraduates. Undaunted, they set up shop with private funding in a 50-plus room mansion in Millbrook, N.Y. Over several years, many Sixties icons came to share in the psychedelic experience -- Abbie Hoffman, Aldous Huxley, William Burroughs, Allen Ginsberg. If you weren't tripping at Millbrook, you were nobody. Mr. Leary continued down the psychedelic path and then onto a technological one, eventually adding "cyber guru" to his resume before broadcasting moments leading up to his death on the Internet and then having his ashes shot out into space alongside those of Star Trek creator Gene Roddenberry. Mr. Alpert eventually became disillusioned with psychedelics and in 1967, he set out for India. But he has fond memories of his friend, whom he describes as his first guru. "He took me from a social scientist into a mystic," he says. "We had a lot of fun. We were adventurers. We were, like, riding on the African Queen." He met his second guru, Neem Karoli Baba, in India. At one point during the time they spent together, the spiritual leader expressed an interest in trying some of the pills his student kept in his backpack. Neem Karoli took 915 micrograms of LSD, a massive dose for a first-timer, but the drug had no effect on him. The feat convinced Mr. Alpert that his guru was already living in an expanded state of consciousness and that psychedelics were not necessarily the only route to enlightenment. Mr. Alpert returned from India with the name his guru had given him, Ram Dass, or "Student of God." His guru had told him to "serve people" and "feed people." Ram Dass would feed their minds and teach compassion. Most importantly, he would teach them to "be here now," to live absolutely in the present and not get dragged down by memories of the past or fantasies of the future. The book Be Here Now chronicled his transformation from "neurotic Jewish overachiever" to spiritual teacher. Some of it may seem inane and silly -- your basic Idiot's Guide to Eastern Philosophies -- but the title sold two million copies and set hordes of hippies on a new path in search of enlightenment. They flocked in droves to be near Ram Dass, camping out at his family property in New England. "Get those hippies off my lawn," his father, George, is seen commanding in archival footage in Fierce Grace. But the followers stayed, and George eventually warmed to them. Today, Ram Dass's message is one of awareness and acceptance -- especially of suffering. Referring to his own physical condition, he says that it's okay that he "was stroked." Suffering should be embraced, he says, since it brings us closer to God. And all suffering, he says, is common suffering. His is no different from yours. "When Sept. 11 came, I went to New York and I said, 'This is like my stroke. This is fierce grace.' "If you can, in your perception, deal with dying without negative emotions then you can see the grace." Ram Dass has shown the "grace" over the years by attending to the terminally ill and offering spiritual support and care. Through the Hanuman Foundation -- which he's a founder of -- he has developed initiatives like the Prison Ashram Project, designed to help inmates grow spiritually during incarceration, and the Living/Dying Project, conceived as a "spiritual support structure for conscious dying" -- the concept of bringing consciousness and awareness to death. He has also published several other books, including Still Here: Embracing Aging, Changing and Dying, a guide to facing the autumn years. None has generated the same level of sales or attention as Be Here Now did. Gurus just don't get the kind of appreciation they used to. He also co-founded the Seva Foundation, a project to establish sustainable eye care programs in developing countries (proceeds from his current tour benefit Seva). Between pursuing these interests and undergoing physical therapy, Ram Dass also offers spiritual counsel. He always has been, in some form or another, a teacher. "People consider me a guru," he says, "but I don't know, because a teacher points the way, and a guru is the way, so I guess I'm not a guru. "I'm a teacher." Elizabeth Bromstein is a Toronto freelance writer. Lessons from Ram Dass Be Here Now . . . is a spiritual method. When you are in the moment, the moment is -- it's like baklava -- it's got planes of consciousness. Just this moment -- this moment. Just take the moment and go into it and you go into a place in your own being where you are God. If you surrender your ego and you're sure you've done it, you can have your ego back, because your ego is the plaything of the soul; because the soul makes the ego, just as God makes the soul. These three levels are three planes of consciousness. Those of us who are aging have memory problems. But you know what? That's just a clue that you don't need that memory any more. Souls don't have memories, they live only in the present. Ego is what can't stand a memory loss. Soul is only a moment, being in the moment. Keep in the soul, and you will meet so many interesting people. The quieter you become, the more you can hear. One time I had the opportunity to visit a mental asylum. I met a patient there who told me he was God. I said to him: 'So am I.' He was quite upset because he wanted to be the only one. You see, we all want to be God. But the fact is we all are God. If you think you're free, there's no escape possible. Sources: Pacific Sun, Guerrilla News Network, Prophets Conference Web site - --- MAP posted-by: Larry Stevens