Pubdate: Tue, 02 Aug 2005 Source: Cape Argus (South Africa) Copyright: 2005 Cape Argus. Contact: http://capeargus.co.za/ Details: http://www.mapinc.org/media/2939 Author: Unknown MY DRUG ADDICT SON IS SELLING HIS SOUL TO THE DEVIL My son is 17 years old and he is a drug addict. He looks as if he is 30 years old. My heart is broken to see him like that. I went for help but he is not interested. As long as he can do drugs with his friends he is happy. There were people who took him in and treated him like their own son. But as soon he was at home he went went back to his old ways. They were like parents to him, taking him to the doctor and to the social workers. The day he had to go to the rehab he was not interested. The other children who were with him are doing well. I can't handle it any more. I'm writing this letter with a broken heart and tears in my eyes. I don't sleep at night worrying about this child who just thinks about himself. I don't worry about his brothers because he is the only one that matters. I walked an extra mile with him but he threw it back in my face. I was there for him when nobody cared. The people took him in a second time. They care about him and he doesn't see it. He is like someone who is crazy and he wants to kill himself. I told him that drugs can't solve your problems - they create more problems. The drug dealers are not worried about you as long as they get rich. I was so desperate that I wanted to do drugs myself - maybe then he would seek help. But he told me that is my choice, not his. I could not do it because I was not stupid. To live in my house is like living in a nightmare. There is no peace in the house. I am full of stress and I am sick. He works but all his money goes on drugs. He doesn't give me any money. He has no clothes and doesn't clean himself. I am ashamed of him. I told him he has choices in life. Nobody can make the choices for him. He tells me he believes in nothing. He doesn't feel like living any more. People who do drugs are stupid. They are selling their souls to the devil. They are making the drug dealers rich. The drug dealers have no conscience. But let me tell the drug dealers there is a God and he doesn't sleep. You will get your day, judgment day, when you will see all the parents of the children you sold the drugs to standing in front of you. And you will suffer; you are going to hell. For my son I just want to say I love you very much and I will always love you. Let me help you, my child. I will walk with you all the way. Trust in God. I am praying for your salvation. Parents: take note of your children. If someone comes to you and tells you about your child, don't say "My child is not doing drugs" because they are doing it, 100% for sure. Don't sweep it under the mat. Is there someone in this world that can help, please? - --- MAP posted-by: Larry Seguin