Pubdate: Mon, 07 Nov 2005 Source: New Jersey Herald (NJ) Copyright: 2005, Quincy Newspapers, Inc Contact: http://www.njherald.com/news/ Details: http://www.mapinc.org/media/2162 Author: Anna Spiewak REINVENTING LIVES AT ALINA LODGE "There is a place where hope can become fact." That's the motto of Little Hill-Alina Lodge. Jacki M. is living proof of that motto. When she was first admitted to the long-term rehabilitation clinic in Blairstown for substance abuse 17 years ago, she was hopeless. "I couldn't stay sober. I had legal, financial, career and relationship problems. For me it was an emotional bottom," said the 48-year-old who works in Sussex County looking back in retrospect. "I looked in the mirror and hated the person staring back at me." According to the facility's director of development, John B. Clark, it's people who have been to other short-term facilities and hit rock bottom that come to Alina Lodge. The 40-acre campus, which holds 95 students, serves as a disciplined retreat for substance abusers. They are called "students," because they learn a new way of life. Alcohol, drugs, gambling, sex, eating disorders, whatever the addiction, the student is taught to conquer it. Alina Lodge disallows cell phones, computers, gyms or other distractions that take focus away from recovery. Caffeine, tobacco and other mood-altering substances are prohibited, and there's a separation of males and females during the stay. "The austere program is there to humble people and make them realize that (substance abuse) is a life-or-death situation," Clark said. "Everybody has the ability to get sober, what we do is give them the tools." Jacki M. used those tools to reinvent her tumultuous life. The journey was long and arduous. She started drinking at age 17 and was doing drugs from cocaine to heroin in her 20s. By the time she came to Blairstown, she'd been through a number of 28-day treatment and detox centers. It was the 1980s club scene era and Jacki was an attractive, educated professional living in New York City. She liked the party scene and the taste of alcohol. When others quit for the night and went home, Jacki still wanted to party. Substance use became a compulsion. "I was a young budding alcoholic in the middle of Manhattan and I went a little crazy," she said. "It's so much fun at first, but then it just backfires. What used to keep you happy, flips on you." The dark side of substance abuse was something she didn't expect. She had seen her parents drink socially and alcohol was glamorized in the media. It wasn't until she couldn't hold a job and had to move back with her parents that she realized she'd gone too far. Her father, who, ironically, was on the National Council of Alcoholism through his job, was referred to Alina Lodge. Jacki stayed there for a year and then at a halfway house for three months. "(By that time) your body and brain are really sick of the alcohol. I was getting a lot of information, but it wouldn't go from the brain to the heart," she said. What the facility gave her was time to regain hope and find a solid support group. She stayed put and saw others around her getting well. Looking back, Jacki realizes the drugs and alcohol were a shield for her insecurity and shyness as a young woman. Today, a wife and mother with a steady job for 13 years, she has confidence without chemicals. According to Jacki, the key is not only abstinence but a spiritual journey that continues throughout one's life. "I'm not a recovered alcoholic, I'm a recovering alcoholic," she said. For information about the Little Hill-Alina Lodge, visit its Web site at (http://www.alinalodge.org)www.alinalodge.org. or call (800) 575-6343. [Sidebar] Actor Speaks At Group's Fund-Raiser Little Hill Alina Lodge, a long-term clinic for those suffering from substance abuse, accepts no government money, relying instead on philanthropy and fund-raisers. And it struggles to convince people that substance abuse is an illness afflicting all sectors of society. "The disease of substance abuse is still not part of our national dialogue," said John B. Clark, the Blairstown facility's director of development. "It has a stigma attached, yet as a cancer it affects every socioeconomic class." This year, Alina Lodge, which doesn't accept insurance for a patient's $215-a-day stay, landed an ally with the clout to address both challenges as the speaker at its Gratitude Gala. Christopher Kennedy Lawford, an actor, activist and author, spoke Friday night about his own trials with drugs and alcohol at the lodge's annual fund-raiser held at the Sheraton hotel in Parsippany. Growing up as the son of Patricia Kennedy - the sister of RFK, JFK and Sen. Ted Kennedy of Massachusetts - and Peter, an actor father from the Rat Pack of Frank Sinatra, Dean Martin and Sammy Davis Jr., Lawford felt the pressure of the public eye scrutinizing him from an early age. He got hooked on LSD at age 13. "Both of my uncles have been killed, my parents were divorced," the 50-year-old said, alluding to the assassinations of then-President John F. Kennedy in 1963 and presidential candidate Robert F. Kennedy in 1968. "The world was a scary place and I was looking for a way out." After surrendering to the substances completely and landing in a number of hospitals, Lawford realized in his 20's that it was time to get clean. With the help of a number of rehab centers, he got sober at age 30 and has kept it up for 19 1/2 years. Lawford's 1997 memoir, "Symptoms of Withdrawal," was released last month in paperback. He is also coming out with a new film in December starring Anthony Hopkins titled "The World's Fastest Indian." There are 22.5 million Americans aged 12 or older classified with past-year substance dependence or abuse (9.4 percent of the population), according to 2004 statistics from the U.S. Department of Health and Human Services. That number remained steady since 2002 and 2003. Of these, 3.4 million were classified with dependence on or abuse of both alcohol and illicit drugs. As the variety of chemical substances has grown, so has the lodge's number of clients, or "students," as they're known and the amount of time they stay at Alina, Clark said. - --- MAP posted-by: Beth Wehrman