Pubdate: Thu, 10 Nov 2005 Source: Big Bear Grizzly (CA) Copyright: 2005 Big Bear Grizzly Contact: http://www.bigbeargrizzly.net/announcements/ Website: http://www.bigbeargrizzly.net/ Details: http://www.mapinc.org/media/4000 Note: Feedback URL for LTEs Author: Michele Pinney GOODBYE TO COURTROOM AND THE DRUGS THAT PUT THEM THERE Ten graduates sit at the head table exchanging hugs, tears and expectations, contemplating what lies ahead as they embark on a new chapter in life. Ranging in age from barely old enough to buy alcohol to almost eligible for AARP, this isn't a typical academics-related graduation. Each of these men and women conquered something much more daunting than books to reach this day. They spent the past 18 to 24 months learning how to be themselves, by themselves. They are reborn, with the courage to change what they can and a new set of skills-like banishing any thought of drug abuse. In the words of one who hasn't quite reached the end of her journey, "I've learned to let go, to live in my own skin and be a productive member of society." In their genesis, each rediscovers the world forgotten while stumbling blindly through the thick fog of addiction. They find escape from the cold steel shackles of methamphetamine in the warm embrace of family and friends. About 90 well-wishers join the class of Operation Breakthrough drug court graduates on this warm, sunny November day to celebrate. Also attending the ceremony are all the soldiers in a small army battling addiction in this mountain community. Judge Robert Law presides over drug court in a tightly structured and strictly monitored program involving drug counselors, sheriff's detectives, the public defender and prosecuting attorney, the probation officer and court clerk. Quietly working behind the scenes are Operation Breakthrough alumni, board members, volunteers and corporate sponsors. In a concerted effort and under watchful eyes, the wagons are circled in defense while individuals fight to conquer temptations lurking in the shadows. Law became an integral part of the grads' lives as each made at least 52 weekly courtroom appearances, followed by at least six more on a monthly basis. He takes a no-nonsense, get-with-the-program approach and mixes in enough tough love and empathy to keep clients in line and motivated. They all know the consequences for screwing up, but somehow they know Law wants them to succeed and find themselves wanting to please him. It's only right that Law officially dismisses each client from his court, and he does so one by one like a proud father sending his children into adulthood. From the stage in the dining room at Pine Summit Conservative Baptist Camp, Law begins the program lightheartedly. His bright, twinkling eyes and toothy grin reveal the judge's emotions. "Hi, guys," he says with a wink. "This is a lot more fun, huh?" Law then speaks of the value in drug court and tells of his efforts to expand the program. "One thing we lack is a place for drug court clients to go once they're accepted and get out of jail," Law says. "We need a place they can live for a couple of months, until they settle into the routine and get a job. Well, I'm working on that." Then speaking directly to the table of graduates, Law issues a warning. "You're graduating, so when you're successful and I see you in that Mercedes," he says as another big grin escapes, "I'll be asking for some money." Law calls grads to the stage one by one, and as they approach the mug shot taken upon arrest is projected onto a large screen above. A few faces are unrecognizable, some are downright scary, and others have the pallor of death on the doorstep. The men take a long look at their disheveled dirty hair, wild eyes and grizzled faces, while the women stare at sunken cheek bones and dark bags under their lifeless eyes. An assortment of gasps, giggles and utterances of disbelief escape the lips of attendees. "That's a mother's worst nightmare," Law says of an image as a grad approaches to receive his plaque and handshake. The change is nothing short of miraculous. Told by his counselor that when you start drugs, you stop growing, another recovering abuser shares his perspective on the thought. "I was 17 when I started," he confesses about his drug use. "I had two years in the program, so I figure I'm 19 now." As someone with an addictive personality, he says his list is long and his addiction to sex is at the top. "Well, yeah," Law interjects. "You're 19." In a poignant moment, one says he's celebrating a new life that day. "But I'm also celebrating a funeral." Pointing at the stranger's photo glaring back from the screen, he says, "I'm burying that guy right there." - --- MAP posted-by: Beth