Pubdate: Sun, 25 Dec 2005 Source: Desert Sun, The (CA) Copyright: 2005 The Desert Sun Contact: http://www.thedesertsun.com/ Details: http://www.mapinc.org/media/1112 Author: Patrick Mathers Bookmark: http://www.mapinc.org/meth.htm (Methamphetamine) TO HELL AND BACK I'm a recovering meth addict and was born in Indio ("Meth lurks everywhere," Dec. 18). I now live in North Carolina. I got hooked on meth in 1981, and used it heavily until 1997. I disappointed a lot of people down the road. I remember one time I had a minor heart attack, but that didn't stop me. I had to keep on following that euphoria that I once had and never got again. I've been to jail and went through detox programs. One day, I finally saw myself in a mirror and said to myself "I'm tired of being sick and tired." So I called up mental health and told them I needed help. I was told they could get me in a state hospital in about 90 days. I told them I didn't have 90 days - I needed help then or they were going to be putting me in the ground within that time. That's when my recovery started. To this day, I'm so glad that I made a good decision in my life. Today, I'm happily married to a wonderful wife and have two wonderful grandchildren. Don't get me wrong - there are times when I think about old times, but I try not to stay too long. Take it one day at a time, be strong and call your sponsor as much as you need to no matter what time it is. Patrick Mathers West Jefferson, N.C. - --- MAP posted-by: Larry Seguin