Pubdate: Mon, 09 Jan 2006
Source: Craig Daily Press, The (CO)
Section: Front Page
Copyright: 2006 The Craig Daily Press
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Author: Brandon Johansson
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DOWNWARD SPIRAL

About A Year After Trying Meth, Local Teen Faces Prison

A year ago, Kassie Dilldine was an 18-year-old college student who 
had never been in trouble or used drugs. Today, less than a year 
after she first smoked methamphetamine, Dilldine is in the Moffat 
County Jail on charges of possession and distribution of meth.

Dilldine was one of 15 people arrested last month in a drug sweep. If 
convicted of distributing meth, the 19-year-old Moffat County High 
School graduate faces as many as 32 years in prison.

For Dilldine, the prospect of being in jail until she's 50 is 
terrifying. "I'm scared to death," she said Thursday during an 
interview at Moffat County Jail.

For Dilldine's parents, seeing their daughter -- who had never been 
in trouble before -- succumb to meth addiction and get sent to jail 
is a horrible shock.

"We felt blindsided," Matthew Dilldine, Kassie's father, said of his 
daughter's December arrest.

'Regret Every Minute'

By all accounts, Kassie Dilldine was a model citizen before she used 
meth. She was active in her church and was an athletic trainer at the 
high school. Her dad said her friends sometimes called her a "square" 
because she didn't party like other teens.

Kassie Dilldine said she never did drugs or drank during high school. 
But in February, while she was at college in Rangely, she smoked meth 
with some of her friends. She said she isn't really sure why she did 
meth, other than she felt pressured to by friends.

"It's hard to say why we do the things we do," she said.

Although some meth addicts say the first time they smoke produces the 
ultimate euphoria, that wasn't the case for Dilldine, she said. "It 
wasn't really that big of a deal," she said.

Although the first time she used meth was forgettable, Dilldine said 
she considers it one of the worst decisions she has made.

"I regret every minute of it," she said.

Dilldine said she didn't use meth again until the summer. From then 
on, she was hooked. She said she used until October, when she was 
arrested for the first time on meth charges. She hated being on the 
drug and hated being around meth addicts, she said. But the drug had 
a hold of her, and she continued to use.

"The drug is so powerful it makes you think more is what you need," 
she said. "But it's not, that's just the drug talking." Dilldine said 
she had been clean since October. She was getting treatment and had 
reaffirmed her Catholic faith, she said.

When police arrested her in December, it was for a drug sale they say 
she made Sept. 28. A judge told Dilldine at a hearing this week that 
the charges against her are in part based on the testimony of an informant.

'Terminally Ill'

When Dilldine's parents found during the summer that their daughter 
was a meth addict, they were devastated. "It's almost like a child 
dying," Kandee Dilldine, Kassie's mother, said.

Finding out that Kassie was hooked on meth was like finding out she 
was terminally ill, her parents said. The family found out about 
Kassie's drug use through the grapevine, Matthew Dilldine said. When 
the family found out, they were devastated, but it wasn't a total 
shock. Kassie was withdrawn from the family and didn't seem like 
herself for weeks before, her mother said. Kandee Dilldine said she 
confronted Kassie about her meth use, but her daughter denied it. 
Kandee had her daughter take a drug test. Kassie avoided taking the 
test for two days and passed. Her parents say she avoided taking the 
test so the drugs would be out of her system when she took the test.

But in October, Kassie was arrested on meth possession charges and 
her parents had no doubt their daughter was using drugs. After her 
first arrest, Kassie started getting treatment for drug use and 
seemed to be getting better, her parents said. Although Kassie was 
getting better, her parents said she still didn't seem like herself.

The only bright side about Kassie being in jail is that her parents 
know she can't use, Kandee Dilldine said.

Not Herself

Kassie Dilldine said she isn't the same person who was hooked on meth 
a few months ago. It's hard for her to believe that her life spun out 
of control in less than a year and now she's facing serious prison time.

"It feels like a big dream," she said.

Dilldine was studying to become a nurse. She wanted to work with 
premature babies. But now, with three felony charges in front of her, 
she isn't sure those dreams will come true.

"Most nursing programs don't accept people with felonies," she said.

Dilldine said she hopes people realize her meth addiction was just a 
short phase in her life.

"I hope people don't judge me for this," she said.

You Can't Try Meth

Kassie's parents said they hope other people can learn from their 
daughter's struggles. If a good kid with a bright future and a 
supportive family like Kassie can fall into addiction, anyone can, 
they said. Matthew and Kandee Dilldine are now going to a support 
group for the families of meth addicts.

Parents need to explain to their kids that drugs, especially meth, 
can take over their lives in a short time, they said.

"This drug is devastating for the people who do it, on their family 
members and on the community," Matthew Dilldine said.

Meth is in no way a recreational drug, her parents said. "This is 
something you can't 'try,' " Kandee Dilldine said.
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