Pubdate: Thu, 09 Nov 2006 Source: Hope Standard (CN BC) Copyright: 2006 Hope Standard Contact: http://www.hopestandard.com/ Details: http://www.mapinc.org/media/1397 Author: Lorene Keitch Bookmark: http://www.mapinc.org/meth.htm (Methamphetamine) CRYSTAL METH DOCUMENTARY TELLS SCARY TRUTH Aaron Webb looks like an average 22 year old, but his journey has been an uneasy one, spending a third of his life addicted to Crystal Meth. Aaron Webb lost a third of his life to crystal meth-amphetamine. The former drug addict was in Golden recently to talk about his addiction and share with that community how crystal meth nearly ruined his life. At Golden Secondary School on Oct. 19, two presentations were made - to high school students and the community at large - regarding the 22 year old's journey. "I spent seven years of my life (screwed) up, as high as you could possibly get. I remember maybe a couple weeks - a few moments here and there and that's it," Webb says. Before becoming addicted to the potent chemical, Webb says he was like many other youth in Hope. "I was a fun-loving, skateboarding, climbing trees kind of kid," Webb says. "I remember seeing those people in the downtown east side and thinking I would never be like them. Then I smoked dope and my priorities changed." Webb was 14 years old when he first smoked marijuana. His habit quickly progressed to crystal meth. His spiral into addiction was documented recently in a film called Crystal Fear, Crystal Clear. The documentary followed the lives of three youth for more than a year who had used crystal meth. The film showed what the drug did to Webb, how it affected his family and what his life was really like when using the drug. Webb was documented at the height of his addiction. The young man was ready to throw away everything he had - a strong family, a future, his schooling - all for crystal meth. "I don't need to torture myself. I can get high if I want to," he said in the documentary after he had lost his job and was attending school sporadically. "I had no hope. I felt I had no hope whatsoever," Webb says. "I thought this was going to be the end for me. As much as I hated it, I was just so ready to accept it." He explains while he knew it was hurting him to keep doing crystal meth, he could not stop using. "When I was high, the whole time I knew what I was doing and I didn't care. The ability to just give a (crap) was not there," he says. "From time to time, my friends and I would get high and have a big discussion about how bad it was. We'd be like, this is horrible." But for Webb, the moment of truth came when the documentary was released last October. His mom brought a copy home and was watching it when he came into the house. "I saw my mom bawling, and it finally clicked; you know, not only do I hurt all the time and I can't eat anything, I realized what I was doing to my mom," Webb admits. "She's done everything for me, made sure I never went without anything, and look at what I was doing to myself. That's what really kicked it in for me." He had a support system in place with his mom and his school principal, which were featured in the documentary. However, when it came down to it, Webb says he had to get off the drug on his own. "If I was going to do this, I had to do it myself. Otherwise, it wasn't going to work." He didn't use the most conventional methods to quit, either. "I smoked a hell of a lot of dope, smoked a lot of weed to keep my mind off it," Webb says. After a couple weeks, he smoked less and less, finally quitting drugs altogether. With one-year clean this October, Webb reflects on what might have become of him if he hadn't quit. "I must have lucked out or something," he says. "If I hadn't stopped, it felt like I wouldn't live much longer, like I could not go on much longer." When he stopped using, Webb says his whole life turned around. "Everything changed. I'm not hardcore religious, but it must have been God's plan." He thinks about the future now and has big plans for a life in the music industry. He has formed a band - the Thought Police - is writing music and hopes to organize some tour dates soon. "I'm really into my music now," Webb states. "I'm not content to work my life away, come home, sit on my (butt) and watch TV. That's not what I'm about, that's not what I do." He's learned it is good to just be himself. "The biggest thing is how great it is to just be a regular, normal guy, to be healthy and have good, solid friends. It feels great," he exclaims. Webb does not crave crystal meth and steers clear of other drugs. To stay away from the lifestyle, Webb moved to Surrey, B.C. He works for a framing business and says that move helped him stay away from the lure of crystal meth. He still has friends in Hope who are still addicted to crystal meth. "I don't want to see them that way," Webb admits. "It would break my heart. I know they're not doing good." For both showings of the documentary, Webb was on hand to answer questions audience members had about the drug. The director, producer and his school principal were there as well. More than 520 people attended the presentations. Webb says he is OK with people watching his lowest moments since revealing what crystal meth does to a person may help others decide not to use the drug. "Why shelter people, especially young people, from the way things really are," he asks. "It's better to be a good example or a hideous warning. And in a way, I get to be both. It doesn't bother me, because if anybody needs to show what it's like, why not me?" Webb has gone back to his hometown to speak to school children, one class at a time, on the topic and hopes that might make the kids in Hope think twice before trying crystal meth. His message to kids is clear and comes from his heart. "It's more fun to grow and learn and become a human being. Grow up. It's way better than any dope." - --- MAP posted-by: Beth Wehrman