Pubdate: Sun, 26 Feb 2006 Source: Chicago Tribune (IL) Copyright: 2006 Chicago Tribune Company Contact: http://www.chicagotribune.com/ Details: http://www.mapinc.org/media/82 Author: John Keilman, Staff Reporter Bookmark: http://www.mapinc.org/heroin.htm (Heroin) A LIFE IN FREE FALL, A COMMUNITY IN DENIAL Joe Ortman's Drug Use Got So Bad, It Even Alarmed A Street Dealer. But No One Around Him Saw The Danger When Joe Ortman began using heroin, the only person who seemed to understand the danger ahead was a dope dealer. Ortman was a wire-thin white boy from Naperville, but he was nervy enough to buy drugs inside Chicago's forbidding Stateway Gardens housing project. He'd even hang out after getting high, charming the gang-bangers with his playful personality until one finally gave him an exasperated scolding. "Y'all coming up here every day!" he said. "You need to get off this stuff." Ortman didn't hear many warnings like that back in the suburbs. His parents didn't know what he was doing and his friends thought he could handle it. Nobody saw him sinking until his hand was flailing above the waves. That's how a heroin addiction often plays out in communities far removed from the drug-ravaged streets of Chicago. Within shimmering edge cities and prosperous villages, the drug's threat can be so unthinkable that budding habits remain undetected, minimized or ignored. "I think it's such a dread disease and there's such a stigma attached to it, people just want it to go away," says Lea Minalga of Hearts of Hope, a Kane County support group that has served hundreds of addicts and their families. "It's almost like there's blood running in the streets and no one sees it." Heroin thrives on invisibility. Ortman's addiction burned for more than a year before those close to him realized he had a problem. Even then, they didn't understand how bad it could be. They didn't think the worst could happen. Ortman grew up in a cramped Bolingbrook neighborhood of squat, vinyl-sided townhouses. It was a rough corner of Will County: Childhood friend Jim Gull recalls that by the time they reached middle school, some kids were bragging about their supposed gang membership. In 1996, Colleen and Larry Ortman sought a fresh start by moving their son and daughter a few miles north to the wide streets and lush lawns of Naperville. The city is lauded as one of America's best places to raise children, but Ortman, who suffered from attention deficit disorder and Tourette's syndrome, never fit into its culture of star athletes and academic strivers. Quietly ashamed of his struggles at Naperville Central High School, he made a group of friends who found camaraderie in marijuana. It was a freewheeling crew, but Ortman seemed driven to be the wildest one of all, the guy who said the most outrageous things, cut the most classes and consumed the most drugs. "After smoking however much, I'd be fine," classmate Luke Salvesen recalls. "He always wanted to go one more. He'd buy a bag and say, 'Let's smoke this whole thing.' " In 2000, when Ortman decided to drop out at the end of his junior year, his guidance counselor went along with the idea. She hoped a spell in the real world would motivate him to finish high school, but it didn't happen. He earned his GED and settled into a string of dead-end restaurant jobs. He continued to see his old friends, turning them on to the latest underground hip-hop, joining them in woolly philosophical debates, cracking them up with profane jokes. He also amazed them with his ability to ingest massive amounts of drugs while appearing as sober as a minister. That trait helped to hide his use from his parents, and it explained why, in mid-2002, none of his pals got too worried when he began to snort heroin. "I just pretty much thought of it as another drug," says classmate Gina Payne. "There was coke, heroin, pot, mushrooms, Ecstasy. There were all these drugs you could do, and at one point, you were going to try it." Together with two acquaintances on the fringe of his social circle, he made increasingly frequent dope runs to the city. They started at the drive-through drug corners off the Eisenhower Expressway, but soon pursued a rumor of higher-quality heroin to gang-controlled public housing buildings on the South Side. Ortman loved it. A fanatical collector of gangsta rap, he had entered a world he had only imagined through the raw lyrics of Crucial Conflict and Jah Rista. Returning from the projects, he would crow to his pals, "We went to the P's!" Ortman's cavalier attitude toward risk and his deteriorating behavior unnerved his old friends, but they mostly kept their silence. Harping on his heroin use, especially when many of them were doing drugs too, seemed disrespectful. "There was a mentality that, I can't tell someone what to do with his life," says Erica Peterson, who met Ortman after high school and became one of his closest friends. "Besides, friends don't judge each other that much, especially when they're younger. I was his friend. I wasn't his boss." And so his habit endured until September 2003, when a Naperville police officer, hearing Ortman's car stereo thumping after midnight, searched the vehicle, found a hypodermic needle and placed Ortman under arrest. Ortman's stunned parents, who suspected his worst vice was Ecstasy, swiftly put him into treatment. Ortman, though, didn't seem to appreciate the gravity of his problem. He continued to smoke pot and drink through months of rehab overseen by the DuPage County drug court, which mandates treatment instead of jail time for non-violent offenders. His old friends were sometimes present during his lapses. Dining at Applebee's one night, Salvesen watched nervously as Ortman ordered a king-size beer. "Is that gonna be cool?" Salvesen asked. "Yeah, it's cool. I'm just gonna have the one," Ortman said. Salvesen said nothing more. Ortman was a heroin addict, he reasoned, not an alcoholic. His life was a mess. If a beer cheered him up, let him have it. Other friends, though, began to chastise Ortman about his partying, and gradually, his attitude changed. When he arrived at Serenity House in Addison, his third treatment program, he took his counseling seriously and seemed to make progress. But heroin has a well-deserved reputation as one of the hardest drugs to kick. Running into a using buddy, catching sight of a needle, traveling a road that leads to a dope spot--virtually anything can trigger an overwhelming urge to recapture the old pleasure. Dr. Gregory Teas, a medical director at Alexian Brothers Behavior Health Hospital in Hoffman Estates, says it can take 12 months or more to get past the worst of the cravings. Most don't make it: Nine of 10 heroin users who aren't on methadone or other medications relapse within a year. In November 2004, just two weeks before the scheduled end of his stay at Serenity House, Ortman was working his fast-food job when someone came in and offered him a blow. He wavered, then accepted. He later told his mother that as he held the drug in his hand, he could feel his lust for it surging over his still-rickety defenses. He immediately confessed his relapse but was expelled from Serenity House and jailed for six weeks as court officials searched for a new rehab center. In January 2005, he was sent to Bridge House in Waukegan. He got along with counselors and fellow residents but griped to friends about his frustrating job search. He told his mother he was dreaming of using again but when he spoke to his sister Elizabeth, he complained only of a cat that irritated his allergies. "I'm so happy this is almost over," he said. Two days later, on the frigid morning of Feb. 1, 2005, two Bridge House residents doing a routine room check found Ortman lying in bed fully dressed, a Ben Stiller DVD cued up on his television set. They shook him. He wouldn't wake up. They called 911 but it was too late: The kid who once seemed able to handle anything was dead of an overdose at the age of 22. Addicts are often at their greatest peril during rehab, when they begin to lose their tolerance for the drug. Ortman's autopsy showed that the amount in his system probably wouldn't have been fatal for an active user. What's more, Ortman, like many addicts, often worsened his odds by mixing heroin with other substances. This time it had been cocaine. "The cocaine itself causes the tightening of blood vessels both in the heart and the brain," says Lake County Coroner Richard Keller, whose office examined Ortman. "Having respiratory depression [from heroin], not quite getting the oxygen you need into your bloodstream, compounds the problem with the cocaine. You don't have the fuel you need to keep operating." News of Ortman's death crushed his pals. At his memorial service two weeks later, some appeared on the verge of emotional collapse, swearing to Colleen Ortman that they would never again stand by silently as a friend self-destructed. But as the months passed, the impact of his death seemed to fade for some of his old friends. One, who has battled his own habit, still thinks it's possible to use heroin in moderation. "Everyone has their poison, if it's alcoholism, exercise, working," he says. "In excess, anything can be a problem . . . You have to still think, just like anything else, it's not the drug, it's the person." Drug counselors say that's a common view. The problem is that nobody who tries heroin can know if he'll be able to walk away. From Lockport to Barrington to Lake Forest, young people keep making the wrong bet. "Nobody's immune," says Colleen Ortman. "No matter how good you think your family is, no matter how much your home cost, nobody's immune. Has that message gotten through? Obviously not. They're still dying." - --- MAP posted-by: Beth Wehrman