Pubdate: Thu, 15 Nov 2007 Source: Whitehorse Star (CN YK) Copyright: 2007 Whitehorse Star Contact: http://www.whitehorsestar.com/ Details: http://www.mapinc.org/media/1493 Author: Sarah Gilmour Bookmark: http://www.mapinc.org/rehab.htm (Treatment) ADDICTION TREATMENT CALLED LIFE'S MOST DIFFICULT CHALLENGE Ed. note: This is the fourth instalment of a five-part series tracing a tale of drug addiction and rehabilitation in recognition of National Drug Awareness Week (Nov. 18-24). Addiction treatment goes on behind closed doors and becomes a cocoon for addicts to become wrapped up in affirmations, 12 steps, and of course, their demons. "It's the most difficult thing you'll ever do," says Dale Gordon, director of treatment for the territory's Alcohol and Drug Services unit, and a recovering addict himself. "There's probably as many ways to recover as there are addicts, he said. "There's no one way to recover, but a good way to recover is treatment." Recovery is a process by which first, one goes through a physical detoxification where the body rids itself of the substance. The harder part, Gordon said, is learning how to handle all the pain that the user has typically masked with drug highs "You have to want to stop, and you have to stop believing drugs are the answer to your pain," he said. "My experience is that people who recover have a way to do that." This series is telling the story of a Yukon man struggling to beat the demons of drug and alcohol addictions. Kevin's way of detoxing was a little unorthodox, but the experience is reminiscent of a Robert Service-esque poem. "When I called the treatment centre in Whitehorse, they were full," he said. "I can't put into words what that felt like. I was speechless. I was really sick; I mean, I should have been in the hospital. I was ready to turn myself over to them and they were full." Kevin did not throw in the towel. He instead went to a friend's cabin at Marsh Lake and isolated himself there while his body detoxed. "It was 21 days before I could hold down water," he said. He went through hell, he said. He did his best to rid his body of drugs and alcohol, but had the occasional beer or joint, he said. Then came his epiphany. "I woke up one morning in Dawson and I had a loud thought. I thought, 'I'm not gonna live like this anymore.' "That morning, it became very clear to me. It was to get out of Dawson, go back to A.A. (Alcoholics Anonymous), and do exactly what they tell me." Kevin was in Whitehorse the very next day. He stayed at a men's hostel, where he said he was not in very good shape. He had gone through his own detox, but his body was suffering the pains of years of drug and alcohol abuse. He stayed at a friend's house and met with the treatment centre's director, who, he said, began to change the way he saw himself. "I said to him, 'I gotta get in here.' And I think, to this day, I think that he saw something different in me," he said. The director admitted Kevin and told him the treatment would be different - more intense. Kevin's eyes welled up with tears when telling this part of the story. "You don't know what it is to feel like a nobody, good for nothing, and to have somebody tell you you're worth it." Kevin said from that point on, he knew he had to throw his hands up and surrender himself to treatment. He describes his recovery as a 24-hour job, going to 15 meetings a week and surrounding himself with people who were staying sober. "I went to the noon and the 7 o'clock meetings every day, plus a third on Saturdays. In between meetings, I was living minute-to-minute, hour-to-hour, not knowing if I would make it to the next one. "I went on a lot of walks during that time, to keep busy. I learned through the 12-step program. I became as willing as only the dying can be." The saying goes that there is nothing as dangerous as a man with nothing left to lose. As Kevin said, his desperation turned into a black-and-white, life-or-death way to understand his situation. Success rates for those who are able to overcome their addictions are hard to measure, because most services through which recovering addicts participate are anonymous in nature, such as AA and Narcotics Anonymous (NA), both of which run meetings in Whitehorse. For those who do not beat their addictions, the story is rather grim. The endings of these stories can rarely be seen, as they are hidden from public view. Indeed, most Canadian newspapers have a policy of not reporting on suicides and drug-related deaths. The Yukon's chief coroner, Sharon Hanley, said the number of drug-induced deaths is surprisingly low. Between 2001 and 2006, there were only four deaths linked directly to an illegal drug overdose. There are likely many more deaths related to drug use, she said, such as disease from intravenous drug use and sickness from depleted immune systems, but those numbers are harder to quantify. The Yukon government wanted a clear picture on drug use in the territory. Its statistics bureau took to doing random polling of people on the streets of downtown Whitehorse who "were thought to be at particularly high risk of experiencing harmful consequences of drug use." While the results of that survey provide clues into the underworld of drug use and addiction, it is by no means close to the full picture of how many lives are ruined, or lost altogether, from drug use. Tomorrow's fifth and final instalment of the Star's series will reveal what it takes to beat an addiction to drugs and alcohol. - --- MAP posted-by: Beth Wehrman