Pubdate: Thu, 12 Nov 2009 Source: Muskegon Chronicle, The (MI) Copyright: 2009 The Muskegon Chronicle Contact: http://www.mlive.com/mailforms/muchronicle/letters/index.ssf Website: http://www.mlive.com/muskegon/ Details: http://www.mapinc.org/media/1605 Author: John S. Hausman, Muskegon Chronicle Bookmark: http://www.mapinc.org/coke.htm (Cocaine) STARTING OVER: TERRY J. NOLAN REGAINS LAW LICENSE Terry J. Nolan is back. After a bruising seven years in career exile, Muskegon County's best-known private attorney is about to make a fresh start. Nolan, 51, regained his long-suspended law license last week. On Nov. 23, he will open a solo practice called Nolan Law Offices, PLLC, at 1 E. Apple. This week -- for the first time since his cocaine-fueled spinout in a humiliating glare of publicity in 2002-03 -- Nolan agreed to be interviewed by a reporter about his experiences. "I pretty much lost everything," Nolan said. "I blame no one but myself." But he says he's ready for his return: clean and sober a day at a time, humbled by his experiences and eager to get back to what he does best -- practicing law. Muskegon attorney Robert Chessman, who recently hired Nolan for his current job as a law clerk at McCroskey Law, calls him a changed man. "I knew Terry years ago, and I know Terry today, and he's a different person today than he was then," Chessman said. What a long, strange trip it's been. Riding high Early this decade, Nolan was easily Muskegon County's highest-profile criminal-defense lawyer, and arguably its most successful. Quick-thinking, hard-working, charming, Nolan had a knack for getting jurors to see his clients' point of view. If persuasion is an art, Nolan was Muskegon's Picasso. In a 16-year career, he handled countless cases, some of them West Michigan's most notorious. He won acquittals in more than a few -- no small feat in a law-and-order community known for hard-nosed juries and swift guilty verdicts. His newsworthy acquittals included Steven Clayton Wallace (not guilty of 10 counts of being Seth Privacky's accomplice in mass murder), then-Muskegon Heights Police Detective Mel Jordan (not guilty of sexually assaulting a woman working as a prostitution decoy), businessman James Crowell (not guilty of threatening a witness in a drug probe). Other infamous clients included Bartley Dobben, found guilty but mentally ill of killing his two small sons in a foundry ladle, and child-killer Dean Metcalfe in the days before and after Metcalfe's arrest, before he was charged with the first-degree murder of Andre Bosse. Over the years, Nolan won literally dozens of not-guilty jury verdicts. Clients were acquitted on charges ranging from misdemeanors like drunk driving and domestic violence, to major felonies including murder, kidnapping, criminal sexual conduct, causing the death of a vulnerable adult, robbery and (ironically enough) cocaine delivery and possession. Success bred more clients. Clients bred money. Money financed self-indulgence. The Crack-Up Nolan's fall, when it came, came fast and hard. A crack cocaine bust in July 2002 cost him his law license. A second in November 2003 cost him his freedom. Between them, they shattered Nolan's career, his reputation and his finances. But Terry Nolan's romance with mind-altering substances began long before that. Like plenty of suburban kids in the '70s, he and his friends at Reeths-Puffer High School used drugs and alcohol routinely. "That was how we celebrated, and that's how we took care of sadness and depression," he says. And like plenty of others, Nolan went on to a successful career anyhow. The baby of a large, close, high-achieving family, he graduated from college, worked for three years as a teaching pro at West Shore Tennis Club, then went to Detroit College of Law. He graduated and passed the bar exam in 1986, returned to Muskegon to practice and founded his own firm in 1990. Along the way, he married and started a family. Nolan's first brush with criminal trouble came in 1992, when he pleaded guilty to misdemeanor cocaine use committed in 1990. After he successfully served a year on probation, his record was wiped clean, leaving no conviction. "I had no idea I had a drug or alcohol problem," he says of that period. Nolan says he stayed sober for several years after that, but then returned to drinking alcohol and snorting powder cocaine. He says he stopped drinking permanently on July 4, 1998, but the cocaine use continued. Things got worse. By 1999, he began what was to become a repeated round of trips to treatment centers. In 2001, his 17-year marriage ended in divorce. In late 2000, he vanished from the public eye for months, generating a spate of wild, widespread rumors including reports he was dead. He resurfaced in February 2001, stating in a letter to The Chronicle -- summarized in a front-page story -- that he had been dealing with a "substance abuse problem" and was, at that time, in recovery. It didn't last. Because his powder-snorting was beginning to cause nosebleeds, Nolan says, he started intermittently smoking crack -- cocaine's most concentrated, addictive form. "I never used it for a very long period of time," he says of crack. "It ate me up so fast." Yet through it all, his busy and mostly successful career continued. Because of that, "I fooled myself," Nolan says. He says he took any case he was offered, no matter how many he was already handling. "I couldn't say no to people," he says. At one time, he says, he was handling more than 500 files. Sometimes, with drug-induced energy, he would get up at 4 a.m., then stay up three nights working. Hitting Bottom The evening of July 31, 2002, it all collapsed at the end of a multiday crack binge. By that time -- a day after two Muskegon judges had removed him from multiple cases for missing court dates -- "I knew that I was in need of help," Nolan says. He had already enrolled in a four-month residential treatment program that he says he planned to enter the next morning. He had turned over his cases to his law partner, his bank accounts to his secretary. It was too late. Around 10 p.m., police burst into a Norton Shores home Nolan was visiting, about to use crack with a friend and an undercover agent. The attorney was arrested for possession of less than 25 grams of cocaine, a felony, and taken to jail. The next day, Nolan showed up shackled for arraignment in the same Muskegon courtroom where he had so often stood up with clients. The eventual upshot was a guilty plea, a sentence from a Kent County judge to two years on probation -- and an 18-month suspension of Nolan's law license. Again, things got worse. He says he tried to sell some of his assets and couldn't. Two weeks after his arrest, he filed for Chapter 7 bankruptcy, according to U.S. Bankruptcy Court records. After working a few months as a loan officer for a Grand Rapids mortgage company, he left to find other employment but couldn't. By the fall of 2003, "I was almost living out of my car in Grand Rapids." Then he got a job at a Muskegon County car dealership. After some 15 months sober, he says, he used his first paycheck to buy crack. "It was a pretty brief relapse," he says -- his last illegal drug use to this day, he says -- but it was enough. On Nov. 10, 2003, he was arrested at a Muskegon Heights home during a drug raid. He didn't have cocaine on him, but his urine tested "dirty" for the drug, so he was charged with violating probation and with cocaine use -- ordinarily a misdemeanor, but upgraded to a felony because it was a second drug offense. This time, he didn't avoid jail. After pleading guilty, he was sentenced in July 2004 to six months behind bars, plus additional probation time that lasted until 2006. He served the first three months in the Muskegon County Jail in "the block," the second three in the lower-security work release section -- returning to work in mortgage sales, this time for a Muskegon company. He kept doing that after his release. Practicing law was not an option: the Michigan Bar Association added three years to his license suspension. "It was a very depressing time," Nolan says. "My family was doing the 'tough love' thing. I'm glad they did that. I have a great family, and it was embarrassing for them. None of them deserved it. I let everybody down, and there was a lot of guilt and depression." And, with a drastically reduced income, lack of money continued to be a problem. Debts remain. But this time, he says, he stayed clean and sober, attributing it to a reliance on God, active participation in recovery programs and close contact with comrades in recovery. The road back In February 2007, the earliest possible date, Nolan met with the state bar's Lawyers and Judges Assistance Program to see about reapplying for his law license. A lengthy investigative and supervision process began, including random weekly drug testing, daily recovery meetings, interviews with Nolan and with people who know him, and monthly meetings between Nolan and a bar representative. In October 2008, Nolan got a new job as an intake worker with West Michigan Therapy, a Muskegon substance abuse agency. In that job, he interviewed and did drug testing of people with drug and alcohol problems. Executive Director Louis E. Churchwell was impressed: "He has a great love of people, and it shows," Churchwell said. "I think he actually helped a lot of people break their denial." Finally, in March 2009, after a hearing before the Attorney Disciplinary Board, Nolan was reinstated to practice law, subject to passing the summer 2009 bar exam. He quit the West Michigan Therapy job, moved into a friend's home in Lansing and began 11 weeks of 12-hour-a-day cramming. The upshot, which he just learned last month: He passed with a higher score than in 1986, when he was a 28-year-old fresh out of law school. With that, Nolan arranged to set up his solo practice, aided by loans from investors. His practice will be mostly criminal defense and divorce, with some personal-injury work, he says. "My attitude will be a lot different" toward clients, he said -- more empathy, an impulse to share his experience. "I've been through jail, divorce, custody proceedings. I've experienced being a criminal defendant." "My mission in my return and getting a 'second chance' to practice law is to make amends to all whom I've hurt by my behaviors," Nolan said in a written "personal statement." "I will attempt to live, trusting God, cleaning up my own backyard and helping others." Churchwell wishes his ex-employee and friend well and praises his work to date. "I know that to whom much is given, much is required," Churchwell said. "The fall that he had was a lot farther and a lot harder. "And for him to pull it together and come back, that makes a loud statement. And I think that that's good for the whole recovering community. They need to have those success stories."