Pubdate: Mon, 22 Sep 1997 Source: The Boston Globe Contact: Some words go up in smoke By Patricia Smith, Globe Staff, 09/22/97 It was a sultry Saturday afternoon, stamped with summer's waning signature. Joggers, bicyclists, and inline skaters recreated doubletime, trying to cram in as much leisure sensation as possible before autumn ices their bones. Lovers linked hands and strolled the waterfront, readers lolled against tree trunks with a favorite tome. It was one of those days when it made absolutely no sense to be indoors. Parents: Did you know where your children were? Well, if they had half a mind and heartbeat, they were snorting the wafting air on the Common, grinning goofily, and savoring their contact highs. Yes, yes, yes, of course they told you that they were joining friends for some squeakyclean, allAmerican enterprise such as softball or Frisbee flinging. But think back. When they came home, didn't a few things strike you as strange? That sudden sense of worldliness in their lizardlidded eyes? The fact that they inhaled a gross of Twinkies before dinner? While it was true that a number of revelers at Saturday's Freedom Rally were earnestly there to work toward the legalization of marijuana for a variety of medicinal and murkier reasons, a pretty big slice of the approximately 40,000 kindred souls simply thought it was the coolest place in the world to be. Long after the rally dissipated, there were reports of adolescent clusters, ditzy on their share of the Common air, wending their way back to comfy suburban haunts and terrorizing commuters with rampant giggling and general feistiness. Some of the luckier kids even got to puff an actual bit of the wily weed within sniffing distance of Boston's finest, who seemed inordinately mellow during the proceedings. Could it be that they were...? Nah. A few steps and a million mindsets away at the Hatch Shell, Boston drug czar Kattie Portis tried not to be disheartened as she communed with a much smaller crowd at the somber 2d annual Sober Day Festival. An estimate of 3,000 attendees seemed wildly inflated, but it is possible that a total of 3,000 strolled through the area. Slowly. Over a great period of time. There just wasn't the sense of unbridled revelry that characterized the aromatic Boston Common bash. ''That's why I have this job,'' Portis said. ''We haven't gotten to everybody. Even though marijuana is illegal, it's plentiful and young people are using it. We see the suicides, we see the warning signs, but kids don't realize that marijuana is the gateway drug. It's the way in. After awhile it's not good enough, it doesn't do the job anymore. ''And kids don't know how they're growing marijuana now. It's no longer grown in the ground, it's grown from chemicals. Sure, there are fields of the stuff, but the majority of it is grown inside, and it's grown fast. That's what they're putting in their bodies. That's what they think is good dope. But it's just as addictive as anything else.'' Portis isn't just spinning the company line or blabbering in an official capacity. Years before the mayor nabbed her for her current position, she was a heroin addict. She remembers the gateway, the feeling that walking through couldn't hurt her. She has been in recovery for 25 years. ''I wonder what parents thought about their children being out on the Common,'' Portis said. ''I wonder how many parents knew where their kids were.'' Before Saturday, Marc Goldfinger, an activist and poet who kicked a heroin habit 3 1/2 years ago, didn't even know that a Sober Day Festival was plann d. ''Their publicity must have been poor,'' he said. ''And they're saying there were more than 1,000 people there? It looked more like 30 or 40 to me. ''Sobriety is not that big a priority, except for people who really need to be sober or choose it as a lifestyle. I wouldn't go to meetings if I didn't have to. I remember when my back was up against the wall, and I'll do anything not to feel that way again.'' ''Being sober isn't sexy, so it's a lifestyle that's not saying anything at all to kids,'' said Jon Craig, a recovering alcoholic who stuck it out at the Sober Day fest. ''If I was young and didn't know any better, I'd be celebrating the weed too. After all, what fun is there in not taking any chances?'' Saturday's dismal Sober Day showing hasn't deterred Kattie Portis; her first priority as Boston drug czar is still the kid who wandered home that day smelling vaguely of contraband. ''I won't give up on this city's children,'' she said. ''But you know how your mama used to tell you that you can lead horse to water but you can't make him drink?'' she said. ''Well, some days you can't even lead him to water.'' This story ran on page B01 of the Boston Globe on 09/22/97. _ Copyright 1997 Globe Newspaper Company.