After fifteen years of drug and alcohol abuse, and then another fourteen years of active drug and alcohol addiction, I felt so lost - confused and angry because I could not understand what was happening to me. For the last five to seven years of my active addiction, I would promise myself almost everyday that I would not drink or do drugs ever again. But the promise, no matter how sincere, never lasted. I would stay abstinent for a day or even a week, but eventually I would go back to drinking or doing drugs and almost immediately all hell would break loose again. [continues 1298 words]
(first in a series) I once heard someone say that drug dependents should be locked up in a cage and the keys thrown away. Some say that drug addicts are no different from common criminals. Others say that drug dependents are very bad people with no conscience and are very irresponsible. After hearing all these, I definitely never wanted to admit that I had problems with drug abuse and that I was probably an addict. So I hit it the best way I knew. I just numbed myself from my feelings and the outside world by taking more and more drugs. [continues 610 words]
